Thursday, January 17, 2013
Valerie Eats Last
When I was pregnant with Edie, at first, I didn't eat anything. Like, at all. Unless you count bagel chips and an entire bottle of sparkling apple cider, which, frankly, I do. Then, as time went on, and winter broke a bit, I started eating what could be considered a massive amount of fruit. It's all I wanted. I stopped drinking coke (not for health, please. I just didn't seem to want it), and just ate massive quantities of anything fresh. I have a very distinct memory of walking around Trader Joe's in February, finding a baby watermelon and thinking, yes, this is what I want. That summer I'd buy huge cases of strawberries and blueberries at costco, pineapples and whole watermelons. James worked quite a lot, and didn't really eat at home, so this all went to me. It's what I wanted, but I was also glad to give growing Edie such a large array of vitamins in the form of fresh fruit. I even kept a list of fruits and vegetables I ate so I would be sure to introduce variety.
These days, though Edie exists outside my own belly, I still want to give her the best I can (I mean, I buy her organic milk, what?). Which is good. That's a good inclination. The downside is that I sometimes get the shorter, less nutrition end of that stick. Like, for example, say I have a small clamshell of blueberries. Whereas before, I would eat what I wanted, now I sneak one or two, but prefer to save them for Edie (blueberries are a superfood, yo. plus, Edie hearts them). Or, if I'm eating an apple, and Edie reaches for it, I give it to her. Which is stupid, because she has one tooth, she can't eat an apple. I buy bananas, like I always have, but I rarely eat them, because Edie eats them. But, part of my brain says, what about your potassium levels? Don't you need a little energy boost in the form of a perfect fruit?
Of course I deserve a banana, but the larger question is, how do I do it? How do I re-establish a balance where I am feeding both of us (well, all of us) good foods, without spending a small fortune on blueberries and bananas?
The subject of food always seems to be fraught, and right now, this is how it's fraught in my life. I mean, I'm generating a massive amount of meals for my very small family. It feels like I'm constantly working to come up with ideas that are nutrition packed, easy(ish), and don't cost a zillion dollars. And one of the consequences of that effort seems to be that Edie gets the blueberries and I eat another handful of pita chips.
But, I'll tell you one thing: from now on, I'm holding on to my apple.